Detachment

There is a phrase, that I read while learning about Attachment Parenting, "Detachment breeds detachment". It is so true. The context, was about children and how versatile and adaptive they are. So that if a parent is not accessible, either physically or emotionally, then the child adapts, to need less from that person. This is something that troubles me and haunts me as I become more committed to my career as an engineer. A few months ago I had the opportunity to travel to Taiwan for business, everything was in place, my plane ticket, my passport, my hotel accommodations. I had made arrangements with my child care providers, my Mom, my husband, and all of our support network. Some things came up at the last minute, such that I had an excuse not to go, and I took it. In truth I no longer wanted to go. I realized during all my preparations, that my kids were going to be fine. Then I realized, I did not want them to be fine. I did not want them to not need me for 10 days.